"How many observe Christ's birthday! How few, His precepts! O! 'tis easier to keep holidays than commandments."
Benjamin Franklin
Yes, we're all aware that this is the way it is, but how many of us make an effort to change that. Really the only way to make a change in that respect is to change ourselves and hope that others will catch on and follow. This has been my intention since my last posting, with christmas coming and going. This effort, combined with my chemotherapy treatments, and the holiday stresses have proven to be too much for me and caused exhaustion, fatigue and pain to be unbearable. I do believe, however, that it has been and is a test. A test to see how sincere i am about wanting to live. Wanting to beat this disease, to live , and live right and well. So, because of the above expressed exhaustion , i have not felt much like posting in spite of how much has happened since posting #3. Happenings in the family, in the news, politics, and just thoughts and ideas, in general.
I have not yet mentioned on this blog that i am fighting a terrible disease.Pancreatic cancer. In spite of the fact that it happens to be one of the worst forms of cancer, i am doing well and well on my way to winning this fight.In fact, it hasn't been much of a fight. The treatments haven't been too hard on me. I was participating in a clinical trial, one of the first people to use an experimental drug called FTS. That seems to be a promising drug, but it was too hard on my blood cells, so i had to be removed from the study. Lately i had a bit of a problem with pain and nausea, but an increase in pain meds, seemed to do the trick.
Now that the holidays are over with and life is back to abnormal, i expect to get this blog going and start posting regularly. I just had a chemo treatment yesterday and i feel pretty good so maybe i'll be able to keep up with this for a while. and , yes, possibly recognise Christ's ways the other 364 days of the year.
2 comments:
Hi, have seen your comments on Sue J's Nailing Jello blog and just wanted to stop in and say best wishes to you.
I am a cancer survivor (which seems weird to say because mine was luckily caught very early, so I don't feel as if I've survived so much as been very lucky) but I do know that terror you feel when diagnosed with any kind of cancer. And I still worry about a recurrence anyway as you're never positive about anything with cancer.
I hope you continue to do well and feel well - Live Long and Prosper!
I always look forward to reading your comments, so I am really thrilled that you're going to be posting regularly here.
Your strong spirit shines through in this fight with cancer -- and you will beat it! (If you're half as stubborn as your sister, it doesn't stand a chance!)
(Err, am I going to get in trouble for that?)
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